randomly.

If I could.,
I would dis-own my life..

another conversation.

Ms B: ahem

Mr A: haanji

Mr A: yaar i am feelin very lonely

Mr A: i m missin

Mr A: her so much

Ms B: aye haye

Ms B:

Ms B: wat

Ms B: whom?

Mr A: the love of my life

Mr A: she got married 2months ago

Ms B: ohh ok

Mr A: i thnk i wil shud get back to drugs

Ms B:

Mr A: it was easier to forget her then

Mr A: now that i hav quit

Mr A: i keep missin her

Mr A: al th time

Ms B: hmm

Mr A: i dunno wat to do

Mr A: this loneliness

Mr A: will kill me

Mr A: kya karoon main?

Mr A: help me pushpa

Mr A: plz help me

Mr A: main paagal ho jaunga

Ms B: errr..dnt wrry

Ms B: hw can i re

Mr A: pata nahi yaar

Mr A: i jus cant understnd

Mr A: i quit drugs for her

Mr A: n no she left me

Mr A: i felt like a fool

Mr A: havin lost her

Mr A: i feel i hav lost

Mr A: evrythn

Mr A: in life

Mr A: actually i hav

Mr A: i hav never loved any woman so much

Mr A: i was lovin her since i was 3

Ms B: but u never told her

Mr A: she knew it all th time

Mr A: jus tht her dad dint agree

Mr A: we fell in love since we r 3

Mr A: i was her best fren

Mr A: her fathr is very orthodox

Mr A: religiouslyu

Mr A: since i m of a diff caste

Mr A: he said

Mr A: no

Mr A: n she was in a fix

Ms B: ohk

Ms B: hmm

Mr A: i cudn never undrstnd it at all

Mr A: i was like

Mr A: is it my fault

Mr A: that we r from diff castes

Ms B: hmm

Mr A: i jsu dnt get it

Mr A: my mothr liked her like anythin

Mr A: it wuz so sweeet

Mr A: til one day she comes up to me

Mr A: n tells me

Mr A: vikram

Mr A: my dear

Mr A: i m gettin married

Mr A: i was like

Mr A: stunned

Mr A: i thot she was kiddin

Mr A: bt i knw th times

Mr A: wen she means

Mr A: evrythin she says

Ms B:

Ms B: hmm..happens

Mr A: it doesn

Mr A: i mean it does happen

Mr A: but not acceptable in any form

Mr A: shud i tolerate this

Ms B: hmm

Mr A: tel me

Mr A: na

Mr A: or shud i tel her how much i miss her

Ms B: naah dnt do tht

Mr A: then

Mr A: jus keep missin her

Mr A: all my life

Mr A: i cant do that eithr

Ms B: move on

Mr A: to whom>

Mr A: i doubt if i can find love again

Ms B: move on..just try

Mr A: its 18yrs

Mr A: i cant get to knw any1 so well

Mr A: its gonna b tuf

Ms B: hmm..u will..surely

Ms B: hmm

Mr A: u really think so?

Ms B: once u'll find ms.right,verything wud b easy

Mr A: dear

Mr A: see

Mr A: wit her

Mr A: it ws like

Mr A: one person

Mr A: we weren two

Mr A: n she was my first fren

Mr A: evr

Ms B: hmm

Mr A: there is too much

Mr A: at stake dear

Mr A: its my life

Mr A: poori zindagi hain meri

Ms B: but u cant hav her back

Mr A: hw ru so sure?

Mr A: see

Mr A: she cant love any1 else

Mr A: again

Mr A: i knw

Mr A: tht

Mr A: she knws it too

Ms B: ohk

Mr A: do u think its easy

Mr A: hav U ever been loved

Mr A: by sme1 for 18yrs

Ms B: hmm..but u really cant hav her back..can u?

Mr A: i wil hv to kill

Mr A: her husband

Mr A: n then run away wit her

Ms B: u rent serious..r u?

Mr A: i am

Mr A: my fren

Mr A: U hav in a way

Mr A: made me realise this possibility

Mr A: u dunno how thankful i am

Ms B: me?

Mr A: gimme ur numbr i need to call U n thank U

Ms B: xcuse me

Mr A: i need to thank

Mr A: or eithr meet

Mr A: i wil give U a gift

Mr A: u hav made things so simply

Mr A: *simple for me

Mr A: thanQ so much pushpa

Mr A: ur a true fren

Ms B: how?

Ms B: i mean..me?

Ms B: gosh

Ms B: u gone mad?

Ms B: arrrrrgghhhhhhhh

Mr A: my dear

Mr A: i need to thank yu

Mr A: u hav dne somethn

Mr A: U cant even imagine

Mr A: u hav given me a hope again

Ms B: i havnt done naything but

Ms B: and not this plz

Ms B: but y

Ms B: wat

Mr A: th energyy is there in me

Ms B: i didnt even give u a hint to kill sum1 i dnt even knw..

Mr A: u made me

Mr A: realise

Mr A: its love

Mr A: i cant

Mr A: stop

Mr A: now

Mr A: i hav devoted my life to her long back

Mr A: u made me realise

Mr A: how easily i let go

Mr A: n everythin is fair in love n war

Mr A: ur so nice yaar

Mr A: how can I thank U

Mr A: deeoa

Mr A: *pushpa

Ms B:

Mr A: u dunno wat u hav done

Mr A: jst tel me how

Mr A: y u mum?

Ms B: nothing

Mr A: bolo na

Mr A: how shud I

Mr A: dnt tel me

Mr A: U dnt need to n all

Mr A: i m nt askin

Mr A: but i need to thank U

Mr A: u can ask me any favors

Ms B: ok do one thing

Ms B: forget it all

Mr A: forget

Mr A: wat?

Ms B: hav a coffee or sumthing

Ms B: take rest

Ms B: for uve lost ur mind!

Mr A: i need to cal U

Mr A: n thank you

Mr A: i cant tell U how happy I am

Ms B: naah thnx

Mr A: i haven felt like this

Mr A: in weeks now

Mr A: plz

Mr A: lemme do that

Mr A: dont deprive me of a chance

Mr A: to share my happiness

Ms B: aaaaaaarrrrrrgggggghhhhhhh

Mr A: plz pushpa

Mr A: plz

Mr A: i m jus over flowin wit joy rite now

Mr A: can I treat U

Mr A: somewhere

Mr A: that wil b nice

Mr A: ..

Mr A: y u mum?

Ms B: no words

Mr A: i hav a lot to say

Mr A: lemme talk to U

Mr A: i wanna say so much

Mr A: i cant express the same in writin

Ms B: abhi u re gone i guess

Ms B: take a break

Mr A: my dear

Mr A: i need to talk to U

Mr A: to tel U how I am feelin

Mr A: plz

Mr A: let me do that

Ms B: naah

Mr A: dnt do this to me

Mr A: plz

Mr A: u dnt knw how happy I am

Mr A: i wil cal once n never call again

Ms B: naah

Mr A: aise mat karo yaar

Mr A: ur th one who has made me happy

Mr A: i need to share it

Ms B: i havnt

Mr A: jst lemme call n U wil find out

Ms B: nahi re

Ms B: u take a break

Ms B: abhi

Mr A: my dear

Mr A: plz let me call U

Mr A: it wil add to my happiness

Ms B: i dnt quite lik ur idea re

Mr A: arey

Mr A: jus talk to me

Mr A: n find out

Mr A: ull love th explanation

Mr A: as to how U hav helped me

Ms B: naah

Ms B: dnt make me mad now

Mr A: aey

Mr A: gussa mat ho

Mr A: but i need to thank U

Ms B: errr..wat have i done? :/

Mr A: i need to explain

Mr A: bt cant do it in chattin

Mr A: so i need to call

Ms B: gosh

Ms B: naah

Mr A: plz pushpa

Ms B: i wont..i cant talk abhi

Ms B: im supper duper confuzed

Mr A: arey

Mr A: let me call

Mr A: i wil clarify

Ms B: yahin bolo

Mr A: nahin

Mr A: i cant

Mr A: i thot of it

Ms B: kyaa

Ms B: say naah

Mr A: arey

Mr A: i tried abhi tak

Mr A: cud U get any of t

Mr A: *it

Ms B:

Mr A: plz

Mr A: try n undrstnd

Ms B: arreee kyaaa

Mr A: plz

Mr A: yaar

Ms B: nahi re

Ms B: u take a break..rathr i need one :/

Mr A: my dear

Mr A: jus talk for 5min

Mr A: n thn

Mr A: U can break for all th time U need

Mr A: plz pushpa

Mr A: try n undersnd

Ms B: ek m in

Mr A: k

Mr A: waitin

Ms B: haan

Mr A: now can I call U

Ms B: naah sorry

Mr A: plz yaar

Mr A: i need to tel U somethin

Mr A: which i cant write

Mr A: it wnt hv th sme efffect

Mr A: let me talk for 2min

Mr A: n then u hang up

Mr A: fair enuf?

Ms B: arre seriously u cant..mumma bhi aa gayi hain and they hate it wen they see me chatting over phone

Ms B: aarrgghh

Mr A: 2min

Mr A: dear

Mr A: its urgent

Mr A: or else U wil mis it

Ms B: achha

Ms B: wat xactly

Mr A: gimme 2min

Mr A: sirf

Mr A: plz

Mr A: bolona

Ms B: kyaa

Mr A: 2min dedo

Mr A: plz

Mr A: i wil cal

Mr A: n hang up in 2min

Mr A: plz pushpa

Ms B:

Mr A: 2min

Mr A: sirf pushpa

Mr A: itna socho mat

Ms B: aarrgghh

Ms B: ths nt fair

Ms B: say it abhi

Ms B: yahan hnaa

Ms B: plz

Mr A: i cant yaar

Mr A: 2min mein kya hoga

Ms B: mummy maaregi

Mr A: 2min

Mr A: pata bhi nahi lagega unhe

Ms B: grrr..achha

Ms B: kehna kya hai..

Mr A: 2min de do

Mr A: plz

silence

they say
speech is silver , silence is golden..
i have never understood who these they are.,
but thats a long story in itself and this is not..

i wil get straight to th point without any more wastage of words..

silence
http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/silence
above link gives U th dictionary meanings.

but basically silence gives words their meanings.,
nature nevr meant us to talk in a way.,
and as it is aroun 60 -65 % of our communication is non verbal., still people stress so much on talking..

out th non - verbal component , silence has a large share..

we think talkin is enuf.,
but its not .,
silence has its own speech in a way..

n ya.,
words will loose their essence without silence.,
these white spaces between words are wat give words ( speech ) their identity and meaning..
in terms of words , white spaces r th silence..

n to some1 who realises th value of silence will always tell U that he / she is talkin only cuz U cant get silence..

simply put words, speech can't exist without silence..

whereas silence in not dependent on anything..
the moment U start understandin silence Ull in a way forget urself..


if U wanna understand th value of silence by an example.,
ask 2 lovers who sit together for hours without talkin n realise it was one of their best conversations ever..
when silence prevails U feel th presence that can't be expressed wit speech..

last but not th least..
wen our mind becomes silent.,
thoughts stop appearing ( the same thing that happens at th time of an orgasm ) will last.,
n man will be complete..

this process wen the above feeling lasts forever is termed as enlightenment..
with this our life is complete..

( if U all wanna realise wat I mean by these last few lines.,
try this for a day or two..
while goin to bed in th nite.,
lie down..
close ur eyes.,
all of a sudden a lot of thoughts wil start popping up..
try not to get involved in any of them..
we fall for th trick and our brain wins everytime..
simply observe.,
n Ull get a gist of wat I am trying to convey.. )


MAY SILENCE PREVAIL..

another question..

brief idea;
this post is abt a question put up by kapil, n views of 4 people abt the same..


kapil:
a question for you:: is the world scared of a revolutionary....if not then why does it resent change??

vikram:
the world is scared of the rebellious i suppose.,
not the revolutionary..
rebellion is more on a personal scale where as a revolutionary involves some similar thinkin people..
some peopl r scared of revolution., only those against whom the revolution is takin place..
n as far as resentment of change is considered humans simply hate change in the first go.,
it is said tht wen bath tubs were introduced in the U.S., they were opposed for literally a year.,
it was a debatable issue in the parliament..

kapil:
rebellion leads to a revolution.....
it is the uncomfort of one man that makes others realise of similar discomfort
and hence revolutionary thoughts but at first ppl are scared of it and resent it......
as in case of any change......but why does this feeling differ in quality from one man to another is a mystery to me....
is it because of the enviornment that you have been raised up in or is it according to your experiences
or perhaps because someone may have nothin to loose to be scared of the consequences of the change

vikram:
there are various factors as to why this feeling differs in quality and U hav in a way summarised most of them.
1. enviornment that you have been raised up ., no two children in a family are same., even aftr most of the upbringin is same at times.,
but the idea here., things keep changing., its nature's law.,
its like sayin
change is the only constant..
2. is it according to your experiences .,well our experiences form our perceptions and these perceptions play a significant role in our future experiences.,
3. peopl dnt like risks.,
and anythin unknown is risky to them.,
they somehow want to knw wat they are bein introduced to..
the secure feelin thing is why the concept of god still prevails.,
if all of us were rebellious., there wud be no God.,
no stupidity on this planet..

kapil:
"stupidity" nice word to phrase it.....but if change is the only constant then why do ppl are scared of taking risks
its probably like comfort more than discomfort....and any kind of risk requires hard work.....
ppl like anything and everything thats settled and not moving even if it is a sewage......
as long as it does not change or does anything nasty...even if it does well compromise becomes the golden word.


ansh:
nice question....t world hates change...it is not scared of 1...
we all deep inside wanna b 1...but when we c some1 come up with such an idea
we loath our very existence nd try to crush his's this makes us feel somewat special...


kapil:
is it that we loath it because deepinside we know that we may not be able to carry it until the very end?
it just proves that one does not have the balls to fulfill his very thoughts!!


vikram:
end of the day.,man strives for comfort but the irony is.,
he never wants to work for it.
n why people oppose it so much is because.,
they will have to step into somethin.,
a new process has to be learnt again.,
moreover many love it so much wen they finish their studies.,
cuz studies form a very big part of change.,n moreover a lotta things r new..
a man's affinity for comfort is the only reason why there is so much technological development..
its like this.,
the rebels think of it.,
work hard for it.,
wen half the work is done.,
they get some comrades..
wen the revolution starts people oppose it.,
n they take time to adapt to it.,
n finally all shit heads., follow it as a new way of life...



ritom:
dekh as per me....t world does.....as whn v r u say "world" it only comprises of a tiny piece of mass...tat don't lik changes.....nd who makes t decisions...the "world" as u r refferin 2 doesn't want their world 2 change...in turn makin othr beleive wot they beleive....now few peoples do try 2 revolutionize r so but in turn they got fked up by tat tiny ,"powerful" piece of world tat v r takin abt.....it do takes a very very brave man 2 overcom such mass......nd there r people who did...revolutionizin t world wot v see now...but again after reacin a "mu" point...those peoples becomes part of t world tat don't want changes...so itz mor lik a circle of complex thng.......i guess iu gettin wot am i tryin 2 say.......wot abt u???

Quotes., that have left me thjnking.

Knowledge is knowing tomato is a fruit.,
Wisdom is not putting it in a fruit salad..


I am not a business man., I am a business, man..
--- Jay Z.

not matter how you try., the last drop falls in the underwear.

if U knw wat u wnt n wat U do., do anythin..

Man gives love for sex.,
where as a woman gives sex in want of more love..

Impossible is Nothing..

Wat U can do., others can too..


One of th most commonly made mistakes.,
"People try to be sure of things they are not."'
knowin that ur doin somethin wrong is enough.,
U cant do it anymore..

If rape is inevitable.,
why not enjoy it.?

One of the biggest ironies of life.,
" All Living things start their day with shit.. "


when U fake others.,U fake urself too..


THe Less poeple know the more they are stubborn about it..


There is something about urself that
you dont know., something you wil deny that it even exists., untill its too late to do something about it., Its th only reason you get up in the morning., only reason you suffer in the shitty bus., the blood., the sweat and the tears.,this is because you want people to know how good., attractive, funny,active generous., and clever you really are.? fear or revere me., but please think I am special.
If You have an addiction., a group of junkies are all in it for a slap on th back and the gold watch., th hip hop who fuckin raw.,
look at the clever boy with th badge polishing his tropy., shine on ur crazy diamond..
cause we are just monkey's wrapped in suits begging for th approval of others..
If we knew this we wouldn do this...
Someone is hiding this from us., n if U had a second chance you would ask WHY..?


One doesnt follow eveythin he knows.,
nor does one know evrythin he follows..



If a problem can be solved., there is no use worrying abt it.,
If it cant be solved worrying wil do no good..


History remembers most wat U did Last..


The trouble with the world is that the stupid are cocksure and the intelligent are full of doubt.

here is nothing more beautiful than sarcasm. That is definitely an overstatement but it should balance the moronic comment which says that sarcasm is the lowest form of humor. Now, whoever made that statement was desperately in need of a rectal broomstick extraction procedure.

Sarcasm usually requires a quick wit, and the ability to extract the minutest points of weakness in a conversation. So it is quite unlikely that itis the lowest form of humor as some would like to call it. Perhaps not being able to enjoy sarcasm is directly related to not having the ability to come up with sarcastic comments, which in turn creates a feeling of inadequacy


While dealing with Females.,
To draw their attention., don't give them any attention.."


No Drop ever considers itself responsible for the flood.,

Its not tht wise men are smart., just tht fools are stupid..


The best way to confuse Humans is by tellin them the truth.,

A catterpillar never gives you a hint that its gonna become a Butterfly.,

Never wear a condom unless You gonna Fuck..


We are born to Live and not living because we are born..

the worst thing abt dishonest people are their thoughts on honesty..

Humans are the only animals who train themselves not to trust their instincts.

Stress is to life as Pain is to childbirth

People know what you tell them..

Offense is th best form of defence..

Dont be a character., have ONe..

Cage is a cage even If it were of Gold..

smetimes its better to keep ur mouth shut n let ppl think tat u r a fool.thn to open ur mouth and clear all their doubts.

Its better to light a candle than curse the darkness..

Diplomats are loved most by people who claim to hate them the most..

Being great and people thinkin that you are great are completely different things..

Its Only after U loose everythin U hav th freedom to do anythinG..

Sex is the Only God made Religion, OtherS are man MaDe

Religion : Worst thing to have happened to mankind.. ( my dictionary meanin.. )

It divides more., n unites less.,It kills more n saves less., Its not givin people a reason to Live., but its givin them somethin to die for..

Its ruling th society these days.,an example of this is lines like these I read somewhere.,
" Not every Muslim is a terrorist., but every terrorist is a muslim.."

we look more into th religion of a person., than th human himself..
The sole idea of religion ( mind you ( th reader here ) ., i m nt talkin abt any paritcular religion ) is a complex issue,

Ur told there is one GOd., but th one their religion preaches., a true religious person would be one who would convert to any religion.,since th claim "God is one holds true in all religions.."

this leads to another interesting question..
Who created whom., Man or God..?
to me Man created God is true, cause U can prove it.,
but God created Man is a hypothesis., used to create fear in HUmans..thats a different story altogethter.,

I'll get back to religion..Religion.,the concept was brought in to Unite people., and also to get a sense of groupism amongst Humans ( CReation of one kind itself)former is acceptable but not th latter..
We hav completely diverted from th concept of religion., it was brought into existence to give U peace of mind.,
IT has become one of th biggest reasons for people loosing the same.,wat we experience these days is a complete negation of wat religion ws made for?

People readin this mite feel I m against religion.,well you should take it this way.."I am not in its favour.."Jesus christ., GUru Nanak., n others were also humanS., Wat they gave us way their way to attain somethin above natural., their paths should be an option not a compulsion..

Probably music is th only thing tht is somewhere close to religion in popularity..it gives people so much passion.,
Ur expected to Live for it.., and not die for..


Influence of Religion cannot be taken away from humanity as of now.,
but we can surely make GOod use of it..

Life is raNdom,

. I was observing the tube light in my room for the last few days., and I landed up with this line "Life is Random".
you might wonder how the two of them link., I have my own theory behind., Its just random..

An Organised person is always admired.,but if you look at in a crude sense., he is more aware of the word random in his life than someday whose stuff is always random..He is keeping his stuff organised inorder to stop them from getting random..

Human brain is probably the biggest examples of the word Random..
Perform a small exercise and you will understand something you already know very well..
Sit down for say 15mins and observe how many various topics your brain reminds you off in the stipulated time..

There are many more things that can show how much random is a part of our lives..
Things exist in two states.,
in place ( organised )
or out of place ( Dis organised some may call it., I call it random..)

Water is something none of us can survive without.,
Take the same in a beaker.,and pour it on the ground below.,
You cant tell what direction it will go in after hitting the ground.,

Think about the evolution theory.,
the very first organism we know off is "Amoeba".,
what I remember most about it its shape., which is random..

Random is one of the attributes of things that are a part of our lives..
One might think there are more attributes like random that can be linked to the examples I gave.,
there can be as many as You can think off..
Our brain is GOd.,
anythin can exist in everythin.,
Its left for us to find out..

The whole idea is life is about many things., here are a few:
1. change
2. opinions
3. food
4. money
5. sleep
6. drugs
n etc.,etc..and many more to each one of Us..
its just about perceiving.,
cause "Perception is where we all differ".
tomorrow the list might grow bigger..

Things exist only after you believe they do.,
its like beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder.,
have a will to see it.
its like sayin.,"DArkness is nothing but absence of Light..""