i was very scared last night, I cudn sleep, I cudn read, I cudn thing,
nothing helped, i ate a lot, listened to floyd, read dostoevsky, heard some audiobooks, nothin helped at all,,
the last i remember was 3am, n i was up at 6. no rhyme no reason, just awake, head achin royally with lack of sleep but cant sleep, time had stuck. it was not moving on.

i brushed my teeth thrice , bathe twice. had breakfast. shagged twice once in the nite once in the morning but cudn sleep.

life is takin its toll, there is no worry no hurry no dream no desire no fire, goD maybe knows but i know he does not.

no frustration no anxiety no dreams nothing et all.
sheer blankness..